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As I continue to enjoy my early adulthood, I can't help but think about what my future may hold. I know that once I finish getting my master's degree in May 2020 I will move onto a position in the multicultural department of student affairs. I will also begin the process of applying to doctoral programs as well. Although, through all the thought of professional development that lies ahead I also wonder what will happen in my personal life. I have recently started dating and would like to think about a long term partner once I move, but I also know where I get my doctorate will not be mine forever home. So finding a partner that wouldn't mind moving for my career is an added struggle that I know will be had in the future. I also am struggling with the concept of having children. I am currently taking testosterone so, for now, biological children are out of the subject. Although there is still the option of adoption. There are so many possibilities out there of where my mid...

18-years-old, a freshman in college and the start of the most developmentally filled four years of my life. I was developmentally delayed due to my homeschool upbringing. So when I entered college I had to catch up on a lot of social development with-in a tight four-year timeline. I learned how to approach people, how to trust people, how to not trust people and how to think for myself. Even now as I look at this picture (2013) I cringe at how innocent and naive I was. I surrounded myself with toxic people out of a need to not be alone. Ultimately leading to a lot of pain and further depression. Although, I did have some good people around me it didn't outweigh the negative impacts of the toxic influences that surrounded me. Coming from a heavily conservative family I held a lot of right-wing beliefs because that was what I was raised with. My undergrad was a private art college that was an extremely liberal environment. This lead to me being the target for a lot of bullying. I was...

Age 11, I had begun to take ballet and tap lessons. It was an activity that I enjoyed very much, once a week I was with girls like me and e would dance and have a great time. Although as time went on I began to realize the differences between me and the other girls. At this point in my life, I began to gain weight a lot faster than my fellow 11-year-old peers. I hadn't hit puberty yet, but I wasn't eating very healthy and the only activity I had was from lessons once a week. My family was low income so healthy food was rare and we also lived in a dangerous neighborhood so playing outside was a no go. I began having a lot of image issues, but since my family didn't discuss things like that I had no idea how or why I was feeling the disconnect I was at that time. Fast forward only two years and I had started puberty and gained more weight but was vertically challenged. While other attributes of my body were developing my height was taking its time. I was 4' 10" and ...